Just because I love this picture....
I'm tired. Very very tired. Lately, Katelin and Seth and Lina take turns waking Trevor and I throughout the night. We rarely get three hours without an interruption. I laugh sometimes about the pennies scattered across the floor, the water flooding the bathroom, the crayon all over the walls, the couch cushion obstacle courses, and so forth, but lately, I have no patience. I'm tired. Exhausted. Beat. When I don't sleep, I just don't function.
I'm not only inpatient with my kids, but inpatient with myself. I want to be able to change things, fix things. I like to be in control. So when it takes time and effort and energy to work on improving sleep habits, finding a better schedule, or being able to manage all the things I have to do each day, I get frustrated. I want things better now, but change and improvement take time. I have to be patient with myself and remember I can't control everything, but I can control myself.
I've known I need to work on our sleep schedule for some time, but have been too tired to even start. I can't procrastinate this any longer. I have to start small. Step one is to go to bed early, and at the same time, every night. I will worry about improving the kids sleep habits and setting a consistent wake time and all of that later, but for now, for the next week I think I can commit to lying in my bed ready to sleep each night by 10:30 p.m.
Starting is the hardest part, right? I hope. Please...
2 comments:
It is hard to be a good mom when you are exhausted. Bryan puts his kids to bed at 7. I think they can read, but they must be in bed, not Samantha of course, but they have always had an early bedtime. It gave Bryan and Margaret time to regroup. I remember when Daniel went to 6th grade asking if he could please stay up past 7:30. When kids are little, our doc told us to let them cry for a half hour and then check on them, but if all was well, just a love and a pat and a "go to sleep." It worked fairly well, eventually, but it is so hard. Love you lots Kellie, hope you can get your sleep.
Our kids are good at going to bed early (between 7:30 and 8:00). It's staying asleep that is the problem lately. Katelin usually wakes once per night. Seth is our best sleeper. Lately, Lina is waking up 2-3 times, but she's a baby and she's been sick so what do you do? Going to bed early and taking naps does help. :)
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